— After school we hitch hiked to Carbondale, Illinois for the weekend. It was 1970 and I was 16. On the way we took some acid. I didn’t know it was supposed to be split up and did too much. Things got so weird so fast that there was nothing to hold on to in the world. The trees were total cartoons with lots of mouths, etc. I had to get out of there and ran into the woods. I began floating around in blackness in outer space or inner space. Maybe it’s the non-material universe. I was alone, disconnected, even though it was packed with souls floating around. I think you could see through them. A terrible negative suction was pulling downward in a sickening and horrible way. If you connected with others you could avoid it. But your thoughts, feelings and actions were all the same and hard to control. The whole time I was receiving tons of important truths that I forgot. It seemed I was floating around for eons. I was surprised when I slowly began to make out the details of Allen, who was asking me a question. I said wryly, “you asked the question, you must have some idea about the answer.” Unfortunately I also explained to him that I wasn’t from the same planet. The next morning I did not awaken refreshed. I had to watch the people of this planet carefully—how they used their legs to walk, for instance. We went to a diner for breakfast. Of course I had no idea what people ate, so I ordered the same thing as the person sitting next to me and I think no one knew.

I recently read that Richard Helms, Director of Central Intelligence 1966-1973, admitted to bringing in 100,000 tabs of LSD to distribute to the youth. Boy do I feel stupid.

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Sue Williams was born in Chicago Heights, Illinois in 1954. She lives and works in New York. Williams has had solo exhibitions at the Carpenter Center at Harvard University, Cambridge, Massachusetts; Institut Valencia d’Art Modern, Valencia; Vienna Secession, Vienna, Austria; Centre d’Art Contemporain, Geneva, Switzerland; Addison Gallery of American Art, Andover, MA; among others. Her work is currently on view at the Museum of Contemporary Art Chicago’s exhibition “Seeing is a Kind of Thinking: A Jim Nutt Companion” and has recently been included in exhibitions at the Whitney Museum of American Art, New York NY; Whitechapel Gallery, London, England; Vancouver Art Gallery, Vancouver, Canada; Museum of Contemporary Art Grand Avenue, Los Angeles, CA; Museum of Modern Art, New York; Palais de Tokyo, Paris, France; Dallas Museum of Art, Dallas, Texas; P.S.1 Contemporary Art Center, Long Island City, New York.